Today

Today the kids and I were on errands and on the intersection leading to the interstate stood a man with a sign.I have seen several people standing in that same spot.I wonder what happened to them .. we always think that it is someone elses live not ours . I wonder how many times he thought that too.That he would never have to stand at the side of the road to be stared at by strangers.Having to deal with weather and the harsh judgements of those who have decided he just didn't try hard enough.

Where is his family - friends ? Is he really so alone he has to beg strangers to take notice?
In todays world it wouldn't take much to upset the apple cart and we could be asking for neighbors and strangers for help.

As I turned up the fan on my air conditioner and sipped my dt coke and headed home ....I said 2 prayers first for the man with the sign who is etched in my mind forever .... and for the other homeless out there... Second I also asked God to watch over my family and friends ..

I wonder if where did he go tonight - it is warm out but did he ever get any food - a warm meal...

Winds of Change

The ball is rolling on getting daycare up and running again. Once upon I time I thought I was done with it .. but as they say never say never.It feels like a really good choice .. I am excited to get everything in it's right place.

The past 3 years have been really rough.. I have gone through so many ups and downs. I was given a book about parenting special needs children and how God chooses us for different roads in life because he knows some can handle things when others can't.It doesn't make any of us better then the other .. just different . It talks about being careful to not make our children feel as if loving and caring for them is a burden.. After all they didn't choose to be inflicted with whatever special need they may have.I know some who carry themselves with the whole poor me -- look at how difficult my life is and yet they do nothing to help themselves.
I admit to walk in that path at times.. after reading that book it made me more self aware of I asked to be my kid's parent.. this is my road - it is up to me to figure out just how to make this all weave together to form our family net.
I want the change on the horizon to be a positive one .. I want to make sure I never make my kids feel anything but the love they deserve . I also want to teach them that just because life changes the ideals we have inside .. doesn't make the trip any less of a gift from God.

Wednesday

What a day ... Liza had school.... lunch with my parents then New Ulm for a dentist apt.turns out in a few weeks I will be going to Mankato for Zach to have dental work done...
I decided tonight I am relicensing my daycare ... I got tons to do ... but it seems to make the most sense .. While I worry about all the running with the kids ... somehow I hope to make this work...

Liza has 2 more years before she will be in school all day so this seems to be the best ... she will have playmates - I will be home with her... It is funny how it just seemed to hit,,,, this is what I want to do again.Not saying it won't have some of it's headaches like any job....
Here is too new begingings

Quick weekend

Wow I can't believe it is over.. the guys were gone all day yesterday .. today we just watched movies - Liza was pretty worn out .. I am guessing it is her mono yet .. although she is getting a cough now... Zach just diagnosed with mono.. so he is really tired...

We did go to the park and play some base ball...


Grateful for the good stuff

Life lessons

Life has been full of them.. learning to stay away from the toxic influences -- trying to keep those that make me feel good about me close.

There are days I wish life could be easier.. then I rethinking that is the hard times are what mold us and help us become better .