Tonight

The blue shirt pic was taken in Feb right after we got out of hosp. and the red one was 10-13-08

Tonight Bruce wrote a poem ... he never writes poems ...

10 months ago I laid in a bed

you feared you were going to say goodbye

Now I am here looking at you telling you

it isn't time ..

We were talking about life .. and how it throws you things you would never think you could handle .. This has been one of those roads .. but I think everyone is doing ok

It has taught us just how small we really are .. that there are so many things bigger then us .

Somethings have taught us patience and petty some of our daily hang ups really are .

I believe we all need to keep a part of ourselves for us .. but we have noticed that our special needs here have carved out our life.. We never know if we are taking a trip to S FAlls ... hence never is our gas tank on E,, You never know when it will be a sleepless night due to the feeding pump leaking or asthmatics need nebs... We don't make long term plans anymore.. we try to just take it day by day.. For we have learned how fragile life really is ....

I have found strength in me I didn't know existed .. I have little tolerance for bullies ...and respect the fact I need others to get through today .. I am trying really hard to find my one thing that I feel the strongest about and stand up for it.

I want to be the mom that makes my kids proud ... I want to be the type of woman that stands on her beliefs ... An advocate of sorts .... we have been through alot we have had to sever ties that were toxic for our family ... we have learned to be creative in family time ...and we have learned to lean even more on our faith...

We have to make some hard decisions ( ones I can't get into here ) choices that one shouldn't have to make.. but soon our kids will be able to see adults don't always act like adults and that sometimes we just can't have certain ones in our lives.....