I've debated writing about this... bothers me a bit to see it in words .. our 10 yr battles daily with self esteem.. and often has said the world would be better without him... he told his Dr's he won't hurt himself but yet questions his self worth..It is hard to fully understand what he is going thru and scares me when I think about what is ahead of us ... He doesn't get that he changed our life for the better when he was placed with us ... and our world would shatter if something happened to him.

I pray every night for God to watch over him and all the other kids out there dealing with thinking they don't matter.